It has been a week since we started cutting back a bit on Jersey’s pain meds, and at this point it’s safe to conclude that he is NOT ready.
He went from having no neck spasms at all over two weeks, and being in great spirits, to having two of them in the last couple of days. The first spasm (two days ago) was quite small… and the second (this morning) was bigger and longer. He’s also lost the ‘pep in this step’ that he had regained, and is back to seeming sore and unhappy. This is super discouraging, and definitely breaks my heart.
Over all, he’s shown us that he’s still quite dependent on the medication (Gabapentin and Methocarbamol) for relief and stability and obviously isn’t ready for them to be cut back.
The recovery from this surgery has been significantly harder than I anticipated. With his incision all healed up, and the weight that he’d lost gained back, in many ways he looks like a totally normal dog. And when he’s feeling good, he seems normal too! But then he has bad days where he’s just so obviously not himself, and it’s a terrible reality check that we still have a long way to go. In dark moments, I worry that we will never get back to normal and this will be the rest of his whole life…. but that is too awful to think about.